I haven’t posted since coming out with my mental illnesses and personality disorder. I can’t exactly pin-point why…. There is so much more that I want to tell you, but even through all of the support and after hearing from so many caring people, I feel mute.
I didn’t have a timeline for wanting to go public, I just figured I would post the blog once my story was told the whole way through. But after my last post was published, I felt a huge weight come off my shoulders and I knew it was time to share my blog on social media. It took a full day to post it because I was going back and forth in my mind as to how I should do it or if I even should. And I did.
It was very relieving, and embarrassing too. I got so much amazing feedback and haven’t felt this amount of support in a very long time. People I haven’t heard from in up to 10 years reached out to me to show their support and comfort me in ways I never knew I needed! But I still feel embarrassed. I told you about my vulnerable childhood, my embarrassing family conflicts and worst of all, my sexual abuse.
I just needed a week to recoup and will be back with the rest of my story soon. I am good, anxious but busy… I always do better when I’m busy! Jack and Jersey are amazing, we’re all just finding our way through life together. Thank you all for your unconditional support and I promise these next few posts will be interesting.
YOUR BPD COMPANION